Farewell to an Ambition
“I was standing on a wall, feeling ten feet tall…”
As you can probably plainly see, I’ve made a few changes around here. The blog has a new look and feel to it, a new name and a new purpose.
After much deliberation and thought over the course of the last several months…I’ve decided to request a discharge from the Delayed Entry Program of the United States Navy. I was hinting at the possibility when I discussed the DEP meeting yesterday. I really didn’t want to go. I walked into my only class today, American National Government, and walked out with my mind made up: I want to finish college before I begin to build a career. I realized that if I joined the Navy the chances that I’ll be able to come back to college with the same amount of financial aid would be slim. Even the GI Bill might not be enough to offset the loss in financial aid and the boost in tuition costs that would occur after six years.
I’ll be sending the DEP discharge request to the recruiting station tomorrow. Before anyone retorts: yes, I understand that I should have been absolutely sure I wanted to be a Sailor before I signed on the dotted line. At the time, I thought I was. Then my habits and personality caught up with me, and I realized that not even the promise of a military career could help me shake them. I’m still a geek at heart, one that loves having lots of free time and has good prospects on the horizon. If I play my cards right, I should graduate with a below-average level of debt. I don’t really need the military and, with so many other people sorely wanting to get in that have no other great options, the military doesn’t really need me. It’s a fair exchange, I think.
I won’t say I’m not embarrassed or regretful that I’m not going to see this through. That would be a lie. I’m definitely not looking forward to meeting with the (probably rightfully angry) recruiters, but what can I say? I’m doing what I think is right for me and my fiancee. I’m not entirely sure I would have survived the top secret clearance check because my father fled the country five years ago. Having family members outside of the United States can put the brakes on a TS clearance approval.
The first person I told the news to (besides Jennifer, of course) was my friend Aaron. He wasn’t dismayed at all. He thought I was making the right choice. In his own words: “You are a smart, smart man.” It’s the best reaction I could have hoped for. I’m not entirely sure he’s right.
So, I now turn my attention to the next order of business: what do I do with this blog, now that the “Sailor” part has been removed? I guess we’ll find out as we go. I intend to move forward with my dominion over this little corner of the internet. I hope you’ll continue to follow me as I weave through life. I’ve got the biggest day of my life coming in less than two months. I can hardly believe it. If you’d have told me in March of 2008 that I’d be married two years later, I’d have thought you were nuts. That’s something to look forward to around here. I’m still reviewing games, as well! The Assassin’s Creed II: Discovery review is my project for this weekend, I promise!
On with the show. Oh, and if you have any better names for the new incarnation of the blog…by all means, please share them. I think we can do better than “Full-Time Gamer,” don’t you?